November 14, 2014 1:27 AM EST
Sort of "adultish" but not bad enough to be censored so posting it here instead of the Erotica group :) Fun fact- this is all actually TRUE up till when I go out and the car is gone. I've spent many a daydream wondering "What if..." past that point.
Clutching the tickets in hand, I shift from one foot to the other impatiently waiting to find a seat. I'd spent every penny I had for these tickets. Driven 3 hours in the blistering heat. And now here I was standing with a small group of other Adventures in Wonderland VIPs. We'd gotten a tote bag filled with VIP merchandise as we'd been checked in, but we were all honestly too excited to really pay much attention to our wares. The sense of wonder in the air was tangible. Perfect strangers were chatting with each other like old friends. We were the Echelon, as we called ourselves, and we were often called the "nicest fanbase in the world". It really was true. As shy as I was, I found a few people in line to strike up a conversation with. We shared little memories from other concerts, other trips. No one was allowed to be left out or alone.
Then, it happened. The people nearer to the half opened door started cheering. The rest of us craned our necks where we sat, trying to see. It didn't take long before the doors opened all the way, revealing them. Thirty Seconds to Mars. The band that had saved me, made me fight again when I had all but given up. The band I'd have given anything to meet was, at this moment, right in front of me. They stood around in the front, and talked to us for a bit. When it came time to ask questions, my hand shot up before I even realized I had intended on doing it. Jared looked at me, and said "Yes, Pinky?" I blinked. Did...did Jared Leto just give me a nickname? My hand smoothed over the pink curls at my shoulder before I realized I needed a question.
Stammering, I asked "Are you going to record Stay the Night without talking?" He grinned at me and wow. My stomach flip flopped. He really was devastating. In the next moment, he'd come closer, his eyes meeting mine. Softly, he sang the lyrics "Are you going to stay the night? Doesn't mean we're bound for life. I know we're made to break but I don't mind. Tell me, are you going to stay the night?" My cheeks flamed. I couldn't break his captivating gaze even if I wanted to. Giving me a wink, he moved on to the next question. My mother. Her face showed her glee as she told him her daughter had refused to give her a grandchild unless she asked Jared Leto to do it. He laughed, looking back at me and shaking his head in refusal to answer. Meanwhile, I wished the earth would open up and swallow me.
We each got a poster signed, then it was time for individual photos. We all lined up, and as the line moved forward, eventually it was my turn. Standing between the Leto brothers, the only thing I could ask for was a huge hug. I didn't even care what I looked like in the photo, as I was so immersed with being held tightly between Jared and Shannon. Once we were released to wander, me and my friend Valerie ran back to take pictures of ourselves. As we finished, I looked around. Where'd she go? My eyes track through the crowd. I spot her standing with...oh not again. She is deep in conversation with the man of my dreams. Narrowing my eyes as she turns to start coming back, I just shake my head. At this point, who knows what she said. I wasn't likely to ever meet him again so I wouldn't let it bother me. Arm in arm, we headed straight for our seats in expectation of the show of our lives. As Linkin Park was on their last song, one of my personal favorites, Valerie and my mom said they wanted to get to the car. Waving them on, I shook my head. I was NOT leaving early. They could go to the car and wait. I barely noticed as they left, too immersed in the music flowing around me.
I did notice however, when I'd made my way through the crowds, and the tiny red Soul was not in the parking spot I distinctly remembered us parking in. Glancing right and left, I began to get a little worried. What could have happened? Where the hell did those two go??? I was a good 4 hours from home, and now alone. I'd gone to tug my phone from my pocket when strong arms latched around me, one hand going to cover my mouth as I went to scream bloody murder. "Aw now Pinky, you don't want to ruin the fun before it even gets started, do you?" My heart pounded. What was going on? Fun...what fun? As he shifted, his fingers stroking a slow path up my sides, to curve around my breasts, my eyes widened. No way was this happening to me. Chubby, boring, plain me. My eyes closed of their own violation, my lips parting to exhale a soft breath as his teeth sank into a sensitive bit of skin on my neck.
He traveled upwards, nibbling at my ear before he asked what my favorite video of theirs was. Not knowing if it was a trick or not, I forced out "Hurricane...", wondering what difference it made. I got my answer as he moved around to face me, his fingers tangling in my hair, pulling until the sensations were a heady mix of pleasure and pain. Gasping, my eyes met his, shocked by the lust I saw swirling in their azure depths. Now I knew why the video had mattered. He wanted to know what I found erotic. For whatever reason, this man I had idolized for years, had dreamt of...wanted me. He licked his lips, indicating the door to the door bus to the left. "Now, Pinky. I'm going that way. I'm giving you the chance to walk away. If you step through that door, you better have a safe word ready and you won't be making it home tomorrow."
My eyes wide, I watched as he disappeared into the bus. The sound of the latch clicking seemed loud in the night, even with the crowd on the other side of the parking lot still within earshot. Maybe my senses were just going overboard. What did I do? Did I give myself up, let him take what he wanted? Did I let fear guide me and run to the other side of the parking lot looking for an escape? My lips twitched as I remembered jokingly telling my friends over and over "If I ever got a chance with that man, I'd do whatever the hell he wanted, and wait to feel embarrassed in the morning."
Squaring my shoulders, I walked the ten feet to the closed metal door. Taking a deep breath, I forced a shaky hand out, grabbing the handle. Pulling it downward, the door swung open. The first step seemed to be huge. Biting my lip, I stepped inside, shutting out the rest of the world. For this night, this moment... I would live a fantasy no other could dream. Tomorrow I'd probably be embarrassed but tonight, I was going to cherish every touch, every memory stolen.